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Joy’s Journal Part Two-Sixteen

I’m sorry I haven’t been posting much. Summer’s been crazy. However I started school last week, and I have blogging as one of my subjects, so I should be posting more often. I have lots of Joy’s Journal and reviews to post.

Anyway, I think I’ve procrastinated long enough on Joy’s Journal. Here’s part sixteen!

I was sick of everyone being so mean. So one day I confronted Serenity’s group.

Confronting

“Why are you being so mean to me? You begged for the truth, and I gave it to you.” I told them.

“Why won’t you just admit you lied? We know you didn’t tell the truth.” One of the girls said.

“I did tell you the truth.” I insisted. 

“Joy, we’ve all lied to get out of class. It’s okay, you can tell us.” Serenity insisted.

“I didn’t lie to get out of class. I wasn’t feeling good.”

Because

“Riiight.”

I sat down on one of the beds. “Truly I didn’t.”

“Joy, if you can’t even tell us the truth about something small like that, how do we know you aren’t lying about bigger stuff?”

“Because I’m not.”

Most of the girls rolled their eyes.

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“How can I get you to stop being so mean?”

“By telling the truth, admitting that you are lying to get out of class.”

“I’m not lying.”

“Fine. We won’t be mean to you when you aren’t lying. No promises for anything else.”

Cinnamon

Cinnamon got up and pushed me out of the room. “But we don’t want to be friends with a liar.”

So all I had to do was not skip classes. All I had to do was what everyone else was doing. It was so simple really.

It couldn’t be that hard, right?

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Joy’s Journal 2-15

Finally, the much awaited (For some people) next part of Joy’s Journal, part fifteen! There are thirty parts in this series. 

When I went back to classes the next day my ‘friends’ set out to make my life miserable. It worked.

Lockbox

I remember seeing them crowded around my locker as I pulled my stuff out if it.

Mudjuice

I jumped back as a jar of dirt and bugs spilled everywhere. It was positioned to fall out as soon as I opened the door.

By the way the girls were laughing I knew they had done it on purpose.

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The janitor handed me a broom, and I heard Roberta whisper something to Serenity.

“Stupid girl.”

By the time I had finished sweeping the mess up I was late to Art, and the halls were deserted.

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I hadn’t had time to grab my art supplies, so I went to the teacher to try to explain what happened.

“I’m late because some girls put a jar of bugs and dirt in my locker and I didn’t have time to clean in up. I didn’t have time to get my art supplie-”

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One of the other girls in Roberta and Serenity’s group waltzed in.

“She’s making things up Mrs Oakwood. She’s lying. No one did anything to her, she just didn’t want to paint.”

“Is this true Joy?”

“Of course not! It’s-”

“You are going to believe JOY?” The girl asked. “The one who lied to everyone about her illness to skip school?”

“Good point Cinnamon.”

“You are going to believe Cinnamon?” I burst out. “What abo-”

Mrs Oakwood cut me off. “That’s enough Joy. We need to start.”

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And so I got to stare at an empty easel the entire time.

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Joy’s Journal 2-14

Bedred

That next morning I could barely pull myself out of bed so I didn’t bother. It wasn’t like anyone wanted me there anyway. I would have asked Savana to take a note up to the office, but she had already left so I just went back to sleep.

A couple minutes after the bell rang I heard a knock on my door.

“Can I come in?” It was Ellen.

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“What’s wrong Joy?” She asked

“I don’t feel good.”

“That’s understandable, but why didn’t you tell someone you wouldn’t be coming?”

“Savana wasn’t here, and I didn’t feel like getting up,”

Layers

Ellen sat down in the chair. “Is everything alright?”

I thought about just telling her that I was sick so I wouldn’t have to tell her about the girls picking on me, but I told the truth. “A few girls have been picking on me because of my illness.”

“You know, you can’t let them hurt you.” She told me. “You have to decide that you don’t care about they they are saying.”

“Sure.” I said sarcastically.

“I have to go now,” She said. “but if you need me I’m here for you,”

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Joy’s Journal 2-13

I know this is short, but I wanted to have at least a short part up today since it’s been so long since I posted Joy’s Journal last. 

After I told my ‘friends’ my secret they left me. No one belived me, and they thought I was taking advantenge of them. Savana had been hanging around with other friends, and I don’t even think she noticed anything was wrong.

I spent most of my free time alone, often crying.

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One day I was flopped on my bed in our room. I wasn’t really doing anything in particular.

Callie's here

Savana and a girl I didn’t know came in. I watched this girl look around the room, barely noticing me.

What-

The girl looked over her shoulder in my direction.

“Your roommate is the girl who lied to everyone?” She gasped. “How can you stand it?”

Savana didn’t actually agree to it, but neither did she deny it. “Yeah, that’s Joy.” She just said.

Leanny

“Come on Callie.”

Then they left without even a second glance at me.

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Joy’s Journal 2-12

The rest of the parts

dscn4680                         Right after school my group met in Serenity and Roberta’s room. That’s when I decided to make my move. I was going to come straight out and tell them, but they started taunting me about it first.

“So Joy?” Serenity asked. “When are you going to tell us your secret?”

I took a deep breath. “Right now.” And then I poured out my whole story. I told them everything. I didn’t want to deal with them trying to find out my secret. And to my surprise…..

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They laughed.

“Wow Joy!” Riley said. “You are a good storyteller. Now tell us the real stuff.”

“B but” I sputtered. “I DID!”

“No you did not.”

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This time I tried to be calmer. “Please believe me guys. I’m telling the truth.

“Is a chronic illness even a real thing?” Serenity asked. “It’s not. Tell us the truth.”

Now I was just so mad. I yanked my feet out from under me and stood on the chair. I probably shouldn’t have started yelling at her, but no one’s perfect. “Not a real thing? How could you think that? Don’t you get it? I’m not lying to you! Do you think I would say that I had something this bad if I didn’t? I don’t want to have it! And I didn’t want to tell you either but I did, and THIS is how you treat me!”

Serenity was now almost on fire. “I’ve tried to be friends with you! I’ve tried to get past how stupid you are and make a friend. But no, you are just taking advantage of us. No one could have things so bad happen to them!”Serenity got up and left. Apparently I wasn’t worth being with.

A lot she knew.

dscn4683                            Now Riley got up and left. dscn4684

“How could you, Joy?” Roberta asked. “I thought you were my friend. But you Lied to me!”

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Joy’s Journal 2-10

This was only the beginning of such sleepovers. I would have skipped them, but I was scared that my friends wouldn’t like me. So I went to all of them, staying in my room to sleep every day after. I fell farther and farther behind in my classes, but at the moment I didn’t really care. I just wanted to make it through alive.

dscn46601                         Roberta was the first to pick up on it. One day she confronted me about it.  dscn46611                         “Joy, I want to know why every time we have a sleepover you skip classes.”

“Um.” What could I say to that? “I have a reason, but for now you don’t need to know.”

Roberta was not satisfied with that. She told the rest of our group about it, and the were always pestering me, being quite mean. They didn’t believe me, and they really wanted to know. One time I even caught Roberta reading my journal. dscn46621                         After one really hard day I was taking a nap. Savana came down to our room.dscn46631                         “Joy are you okay?” dscn46641                          And then to my surprise I had smacked her, and she was laying on the ground.

I cried myself to sleep.

Joy’s Journal Part 2-9

When I was getting ready to do this part I realized that all the dolls were in new clothes, and I didn’t have to change their clothes. YESSSSSSSSSSSS!

I don’t know how they do it. Really I don’t.

At that moment ‘it’ was have a sleepover, stay up till two in the morning, and then go to classes. The rest of the girls at Roberta’s sleepover had slept in her room, but since mine was right next door I went to my own.

dscn44871                        And when I woke up I was exhausted. I knew I couldn’t do classes that day. I just couldn’t. dscn44881                          I saw that there was a notebook right next to my bed. dscn44891                          So I grabbed the book and scribbled something. dscn44901                          Sick today can’t come to classes -Joydscn44911                         “Can you deliver this to the secretary?” I asked Savana. She grabbed the note and read it. dscn44921

“I guess.” She sounded worried. “Are you really going to be okay by yourself?”

“Don’t worry Savana.” I insisted. “The secretary will send the nurse down here to make sure I’m really sick.”

“Okaayyyy.” She still sounded worried. “Feel better Joy.”

Then she was gone. dscn44931                        And pretty soon Ellen arrived.

“Oh it’s you Joy. I wasn’t sure who was in room 768.”

“Yup it’s me.”

“Normally I would check to see if you are really sick, but with you, I think it’s fine. You can stay in here today.”

“Good.”

“How are you feeling.”

And that’s when I lost it.

“What do you think! Would I not be going to classes if I was okay?” dscn44941                       Ellen plopped in the chair.

“Oh Joy.” She sighed then seemed to come up with something. “Have a nice day.”

And then she was gone.

Joy’s Journal Part Eight

Yes, this was supposed to be posted a long time ago. Like on November 1st. So just pretend it is November 1st, and you’ll be good. 

Savana was spending more time with her horseback riding friends, and we didn’t have any classes together, so I started hanging out with Roberta. Her group was the popular one, the one everyone loved and wanted to be with. This group wasn’t all that great though…..dscn44411                        While we were eating lunch I saw Savana wandering around, looking for a place to sit. dscn44421                          I waved her over to where I was.

“Sit with us Savana.”

“Her! Sit with US?” Serenity answered. “Nope. Go sit with the rest of your loser friends.”

“Then I’ll come sit with you.”dscn44441                      But Savana had already turned away.

It wasn’t bad though. It was kind of fun being in the popular group here. But really I just missed Savana.

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Joy’s Journal Part Seven

dscn44071                          I was at my door, trying to get in. The lock wouldn’t open, and Savana wasn’t around to help me. dscn44102                       Suddenly this girl walked up.

“Need some help?”

“Yeah.”

dscn44111                           I stepped aside and let her do her thing. In seconds the door was open. I took a step toward it, but The girl motioned toward her own door, the one next to it.

“Wanna come in, Joy!”

“Sure, wait, how do you know my name?”

“You are the one who fell asleep in class right?”

She opened her door, and we walked in. It was one of the more expensive, nicer rooms, that only the richest families could afford. I realized that the girl must be part of the ‘popular group’ for they were the only ones with expensive rooms. dscn44121                         She hopped up onto the bed and motioned for me to follow, but I stayed on the stool.

“Yes, that’s me.”

“Good. I admire your courage Joy. I’m Roberta, but my friends call me Bob.”

We talked until the dinner bell rang, and when it did Roberta invited me to sit with her, and I said yes. Because I liked Roberta.

Lexie

Joy’s Journal Part Six

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“JOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!”

I turned over and put my pillow over my head. “Be quiet Hope!”

“Oh Joy,” Savana Laughed. “We are at this boarding school, River Valley, not home.”

dscn42541                              I sat up. She was right. A bell rung. I realized that I had slept in my clothes and I hurried out of bed to change.

dscn42551                         I was trying to pull my hair into braids, when the bell rang.

“Is that the breakfast bell?”

“No Joy, that is the late bell.” She took off running, leaving me behind. dscn42561                                                                                               When I got to my class they were  doing names. I had had a hard time falling asleep the night before and I was really tiered.

dscn42581                                                                          The teacher was about as far away as she could get from me. I rested my head against the table for just a minute. And I fell asleep.  dscn42601                          I felt a tap on my head. “Hello?” The teacher said. “And what name do you have the honer of having?” dscn42611                           “Ummm.” I stuttered. “What was the question? Oh, I won’t know it. I fell asleep.” I admitted hesitantly.

“What is your name?”

“Joy Fully.”

Her expression softened. “It’s okay Joy. You can get a pass and go to the nurse’s office. Just try to stay awake from now on.” dscn42591                      The Teacher walked back up to her desk. 
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                          As I walked out of the room I saw a girl raise her hand.

“I forgot a pencil.”

“Then use Roberta’s!” She snapped.

Why was she being so nice to me? I wondered. Then it dawned on me. She knew about my chronic illness.

Lexie